It has been several weeks since I was sentenced to 151 Years in prison. I am still trying to adjust to my new reality, but it hasn't been easy. The days pass by slowly and each night I lay in my cell with a feeling of dread and hopelessness. It feels like I'm never going to get out of here.
I used to think that life would be different when I got out of prison, but now that those dreams are gone, I feel empty inside. It's like there is nothing left for me but this cold, dreary cell.
The first few days were the worst. I felt completely helpless and alone. Everything from the lack of sunlight to the disgusting food made every day seem unbearable. Even though my cellmate was nice enough, he doesn't understand what I'm going through and can't really offer me any advice or comfort.
I've tried to make the best of the situation by creating a small routine for myself each day. Every morning starts with exercise right before breakfast which helps me clear my mind and gives me something to look forward to each morning. After breakfast I usually spend some time reading or writing in my journal which allows me to express my thoughts without being judged by anyone else.
In the afternoons, I take long walks around the prison yard while trying not to focus on how much time is left in my sentence or how much freedom others have that I don't have anymore. Then dinner comes along and it's back into my cell for another night of lonely contemplation about the life that could've been had things been different for me.
Despite all this, it's important for me not to give up hope completely as there is always a light at the end of even the darkest tunnel: friends who visit once in awhile, small victories here and there (like getting an extra hour outside instead of just one) or even just reminiscing with other inmates about our lives before we were incarcerated are all small wins that keep me motivated during these tough times in life sentence prison .
It takes immense strength and courage to cope with such a difficult situation but ultimately it's up to me whether or not I let myself be consumed by despair or if find some sort of peace within these walls despite confinement because no matter what happens , making it through these dark times will make any future success that much sweeter .
I still believe that I can make something good out of this situation, even if it's just learning how to cope with the present and make my own dreams come true. It's not going to be easy, but I know anything is possible if you put your mind to it. I'm determined to make the best of this life sentence and find the strength within myself to remain hopeful and positive no matter what comes my way.